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about

Four weeks after the devastating suicide of my sister, I locked myself in my shed for four days and wrote and recorded these songs on my 8-track as both tribute and therapy. I've had death close to me before and here I was again. Anyway I went on a songwriting bender, shit just came pouring out of me and I was drinking and crying and smoking in the middle of the night while I was mixing it and in some songs the shed door is slamming because I forgot to lock it. Lo-fi...

I wanted the songs to tell the story of the two weeks between getting a phone call at work and letting go black helium balloons at the funeral. All the emotions that had gone through me and the people around me in those two weeks.

For Jodi.

Making this
was all I knew
it's an empty world
without you.

credits

released March 2, 2015

All songs by MJ Barker.
Written and recorded over four days in February 2015 in The Shed except Blue which was recorded in 2013 and once released under the name, Memo.

Cover photography by Leif Nash.

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Water Music Melbourne, Australia

Dark, cinematic space folk / lo-fi universe.

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Track Name: Operator
I've been working on my
modus operandi
the one that helps me breathe slow
the one that helps me see
operator help me please

All those terrible times
were just training for life
a life that I believed would come
a life that I could see
would hurt so much I'd bleed
now operator please
(gotta help me)
connect to me

Operator please
operate on me
operator please
(ya gotta help me)
connect to me
Track Name: Ships
I built a hard ship
to sail across the sea of love
to the lone star above

Misfortune tailing me
breaking all I could see
and all I could be
all I could be

I sailed a hard ship
across an ocean of love
with a lone star above

Exhausted but sailing free
cold hands trying to take me
but I still believed
in all I could be

so don't tell me, no more...
Track Name: Fool
Oh man, oh man
I'm just getting started
toward a dark uncharted end
oh ma'am, oh ma'am
all those fears I carted
a cliche broken hearted man
a fool, oh lord

Oh man, oh ma'am
you're like my dear departed
she liked to break apart and care
but I can't, I can't
I'm just not bleeding hearted
I make a cold and guarded friend
a fool, oh lord

Does it feel like you should be here?
Do you smile when you cry?
And do you feel kinda hated
when all you do is try?

Like a fool. oh lord...
Track Name: Blue
Them blue eyes will get you
when my heart is gone
and I won't forget you
and all I have done
to you

And if I can let you
be my one
will you forget me
when long I do run
from you
Track Name: Coraline
Dear Coraline
you saved us all
but you're light don't shine
now that you're gone
no you're light don't shine
now that you're gone
you held the key
to an unholy door
but all that you'd say
was
"no more"
Track Name: Loser
Confusion don't make me sad
makes me mad as fuck
when you're using all
of your young man luck
working as a stage hand
and bleeding for a cold can
you'll never make it far now
you'll never make it far

Illusion don't make me mad
like some bad ass punk
in the freedom of
his old man's truck
and out in the badlands
he's talking like a man
but he'll never make it far now
he'll never make it far

I bet you lose
I bet you lose
I bet you lose
I bet you lose
Track Name: Wind
I found you when
life was dark
and you pulled me in
saying that it's hard
to hold
saying that it's dark
and cold
like the wind

I tried to win
your absent heart
but you called me a friend
you told me that you're hard
to hold
you told me that you're dark
and cold
like the wind

I never saw you again
but you made your mark
I'm just a man, a fool, a friend
who know that its hard
to hold
who knows that it's dark
and cold
like the wind

When light's burning red
a raging star
if you look up you'll see me friend
and I know it's hard
to hold
and I know it's hard
to hold
and I know it's hard to hold
the wind